Contemplating Suicide

It sucks not having enough money to do basic shit. Like going from point a to point b. Having a nice meal. Buying new shoes. Having a hot shower. Having a house. Etc. I don't know what to do. I'm not even sure if anyone is going to see this... I'm about to give up. I'm living alone in my vehicle. It's tuff... My vehicle needs some love. 

This is my kia

I seriously need help, can someone send me some money to give me hopes in moving forward, thanks.